Well..

I’ve probably been avoiding the truth this whole time and I guess I feel rather stupid for doing so. I know to you I’m just a good friend that you like to have around and nothing more. Just a friend that you like to share things with because that’s how it’s always been all the things you do, show this at least. I wanted to think that maybe you needed me for whatever pathetic reason I had come up with but I realize that you don’t and that being with or without me is something is trivial to you. I guess I was holding on to some hope that you would realize that you saw some hope or at least a future in us. I guess in the end I was relying on you even though you weren’t necessarily here to rely on, I’m sorry. I’m not sure what goes on in your mind really but this is the conclusion I’ve come to with what little I do know and what you’ve shown me. I don’t know if you’ll end up happy where you are right now but I guess that really isn’t my business anymore. I don’t know if you made the right choice, if it’s just something that happened on a whim, or anything much at all; but I do know that you’ll do what you feel is right and well this is what you’ve felt is right. I wanted to do what I could for you but I guess I failed in the end, sorry for that too. I probably broke a lot of promises to you but if it’s worth anything then could you take how I felt for you towards the end as my true feelings all along? Regardless, I did trust you to the end; you never needed to win it back. I know I was a bit mean sometimes but most of the time I just wanted to make you jealous or pull you closer because I liked having the feeling of you being close to me. I guess I did a pretty crappy job of that too, sorry again. If you think of me, I don’t know if you will or not, think of me with a smile because I don’t particularly like the idea of being thought of as gloomy or sad. With that being said I am impressed at who you’ve become. I’m not sure if you can call this moving on but I guess I need to leave you alone and stop bothering you. Besides you don’t need me around for much and I’m getting pretty bored sitting here not being needed. Well, I guess that’s about it. I’ll see you around, maybe.