Sometimes when your with someone you feel as if your presence is not really appreciated maybe not the extent that some others would be. Such feelings and sensations are easily distinguishable and it’s safe to say that you can be right almost 100% of the time when you feel as if your existance isn’t all that meaningful to a person. I think I understand, therfore I’ve finally reached a point that I hadn’t been able to see and I understand what you’ve come to. A place where desolation is better than me and in such a place I cannot let myself be. Have fun with those you cherish, although unfortunately it doesn’t include me.
Sorry.
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I was thinking about a couple of things today that seem to have troubled me throughout my life, one of which is cussing. I don’t really like to cuss but I do it when I want to make it a point that I am under duress or that something deserves to be put on the same level as the garbage language I am using. Otherwise I consider cussing in common chit chat to be somewhat vulgur and degrading to the person doing the cussing. If you cuss in public you seem like your whole vocabulary revolves around said bad words and that you’ve chosen to staunch you education for the practice of using disgusting language in public. You are saying to the world, “Hey world look at me I seem to think that the use of obscene words is completely acceptible and even pleasurable for those around me, my arrogance also leads me to believe that by using these pathetic excuses for words will exalt me in every possible way.” The atrosity of cussing can only be compared to eating feces in public both of which make me gag. “Who made you the ultimate ruler on what I can say or do?”, you may ask yourselves. Well…no one but honestly from a citizen of the world, society, The United States, Texas, Hickville, etc. I implore you to reconisder your use of language, because if anything your saving yourself the embarrassment of others thinking that your knowledge has as much depth as your words. The second thing that has been on my mind is the subject of Conditionality, for it is something that we are all subject to by others at some point or another. No matter what happens between you and another person you will always be subject to conditionality if they cannot stop seeing you through the same paradigm. It is the obligation of said person to realize that they are setting you aside from everything else and instituting different ideals and rules towards you than they are others. They treat you differently (usually worse) than they would other people they consider to be close or good to them given that the situation was the same. You know conditionality exists because it is the blatant discrimination between an indvidual,object, or thing and any other group of people, objects or things. What causes it? Well personally I believe that in most cases it is due to the person’s past views, knowledge, or ideas of the person they are judging preemptively. Because in essence that is what happens, you chose a reaction to a situation based on who is involved (and the circumstances of course). For example if a stranger cuts you off in traffic your are more likely to display your mid digit proudly in his face, but if your friend does it your anger will soon melt away and turn to a simple smirk that will connotate to them”You cheeky bastard I’ll get you back for this. Haha.” So there you have it, what to do with it is always up to you.
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