Nada.

“Tu ni me llegas a los talones. Toda una vida rompiendo corazones. Y ya te agradezco las memorias pero se repetira tu historia y no vales la pena. No ha cambiado nada en ti. Yo soy mejor de lo qué jamas fui y nada lo cambiara. Ya no te necesito mas no lograrás conmigo jamas. Qué lástima me da tu caso. Quédate aqui qué yo me voy soy mas feliz en donde estoy parado. Desencadenado de ti yo soy mas feliz. Quédate en tu celda de dos por dos y repite los errores. Mientras yo disfruto de los mejores tiempos. Yo te di todo ahora quieres otra oportunidad, qué lástima me da tu caso. Pero ya, ya no te necesito mas no lograras conmigo jamas. Qué lástima me da tu caso. Ya quédate aqui qué yo me voy soy mas feliz en donde estoy parado. Desencadenado de ti. No, y nada y nada y nada y nada lo cambiara. Qué curioso, qué cómico qué te das cuenta de qué yo era lo mejor qué tenías. Y este topico qué logico qué es. Aqui donde me ves parado, nunca llegaras a mi lado. Y porqué eres una niña con cara de mujer qué tan siega llegaste a ser ya lo qué paso, paso. Ya no te necesito mas no lograrás conmigo jamas. Qué lástima me da tu caso. Ya quédate aqui qué yo me voy soy mas feliz en donde estoy parado. Desencadenado de ti. Y nada y nada y nada y nada lo cambiara. Es porqué nada nada nada te cambiara. Lástima me da tu caso.”

Desencadenado by Nuuro

Do you realize?

Resolve.

When you were alone, I was there. When you needed help, I was there. When no one had time for you, I was there. When you told your deepest secret to the world, I was there. When you needed someone to believe that you could, I was there. When I needed you, you left me. If you honestly don’t care for what i’ve done or find me so easily replaceable, then leave if you must. But what is love if not a culmination of experiences, possibly blinded by the turmoil of that which goes on around you. But love is never forgetten for it is a mark within you a feeling inside that knows even though you may deny that you are afraid. Afraid to let go, afraid to accept, afraid to acknowledge what is true. If this is the truth you so have choesn to believe then I am no one to deny you of your opinion. If this is the resolve you hold so defiantly then so be it. My resolve will then be to adhere to your choice and give you what you want. Solitude from my love. Good bye, chéri.

“You’re worth,
losing my self esteem
Your clever words mean
nothing more to me than
than a line i heard in a movie
You’re worth,
losing my losing my losing my self esteem
You’re not worth,
putting myself in these situations

Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh,
Why do I put myself in these situations
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh,
I keep pushing myself even though
I can’t take it at all
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh,
Why do I put myself in these situations
Whoa oh Whoa oh Whoa oh,
I keep pushing myself even though
I can’t take it at all”

End.

If I could.

Im trying so hard to move on but just as she finds it so impossible to love me again I find it impossible to find a time when I can no longer love her. Time seems to go slowly in my head every moment agonizingly as poignant as the last, serves as a reminder to her continued absence in my life. It’s insane all that she has done was show me how much more I do love her and how much I’d give to get her back. She once asked if i’d protect her from danger, and my answer then might have been questioned but now I can say without a doubt I’d pull the dagger towards my heart, point the gun towards my head, sacrifice my entire being if only to see her safe once again…I was so filled with purpose, purpose to love her, appreciate her for the small details that made up who she was, and show her the world through my eyes so that maybe she could someday completely understand me and I her…but what is a man without a purpose? He is a shell of life, the shadow of existance, more importantly he no longer wishes to live, to thrive, to succeed but only to succumb to the darkness that surrounds him. I HAD what I wanted in life, I HAD every intention to succeed, I HAD love enough to share with the world. What I am left with is a void that can’t be filled, can’t be ignored, and certainly can’t be fixed because that void has a specific shape, a name, a character, a face, a hand, a gesture, a voice that belong to one person and they have now gone leaving only their hollow existance in mine. What is a man without purpose…I am a man without purpose and I am nothing. Time will erode my sands, uncover the pain that was left behind, and reveal my misery in these dark times. Time will not heal because I am sure that I had wanted and it is my fault I lost it all, my destiny led me here. This moment in time is all I have all I am everything else that I knew is gone and won’t come back. I’m sorry I couldn’t be the person that you would have wanted to stay with the rest of your life, i’m sorry I caused this I only wish that I could once again see you love me. A tender touch, a simple kiss, the slightest mouthful to give me hope that not everything was lost here and now. I didn’t need the world to love me, just one person, but now that is lost to a place I cannot find.If I could i’d find it and bring it to you showing you once again what I meant and what you now mean.

Edit:

I was originally intended to let you hear this song because I thought that you would perfectly understand then how it is I felt about you. Since your gone I still feel the need to tell you of what it was that I felt exactly.  Sorry if im pathetic…I wish I could be stronger, colder, maybe even a little bitter…but all I can feel is the love I have you for pulsing with misery for your loss.

Un Paseo by Nuuro

Demos un paseo en mi monopatín de croma colores, el dia esta precioso. Pide un paseo juntos siempre hasta el fin, superando el temor oh uh oh uh ohhhh. Yo me despierto con ganas de ser lo que tu quieres en mi. Hambre para tocarte, dejarte tal como eres. Quieres ver? Quieres ver? Yo te dare todo lo que quieras. Todo lo que quieras [todo lo que quieras]. Demos un paseo en las esquinas mas oscuras de mi cerebro y en mi monopatín de croma colores, vamos hoy el dia esta precioso. Mmmmh, yo me despierto [yo me despierto] con ganas de amarte tal, tal como eres [yo me despierto]. He visto un patron en ti; dejame asomarme a tu mente [yo me despierto]. Yo te dare todo lo que quieras [todo lo que quieras], todo lo que quieras [todo lo que quieras], todo lo que quieras, si.

English Translation:

Let’s take a ride on my chrome colored skateboard, for today is beautiful. Ask for a ride together that will last forever, overcoming any fear oh uh oh uh ohhhh. I wake up wanting to become what you want in me. Hunger to touch you, to leave you exactly as you are. Want to see? Want to see? I will give you everything you want. Everything you want [everything you want]. Let’s take a ride in the darkest corners of my mind and on my chrome colored skateboard, c’mon today is beautiful. Mmmmh, I awaken [I awaken] wanting to love you just as, just as you are [I awaken]. I’ve seen a pattern in you, let me peek inside your mind [I awaken]. I will give you everything that you want [everything that you want], everything that you want [everything that you want], everything that you want, yes.