Things new.

So I officially hate video projects.

Do you remember.

Do you remember when we first met? I sure do
It was some time in early September
Though you were lazy about it, you made me wait around
I was so crazy about you, I didn’t mind

So I was late for class, I locked my bike to yours
It wasn’t hard to find, you’d painted flowers on
Guess that I was afraid that if you rolled away
You might not roll back my direction real soon

Well, I was crazy about you then and now
The craziest thing of all, over ten years have gone by
And you’re still mine, we’re locked in time
Let’s rewind

Do you remember when we first moved in together?
The piano took up the living room
You played me boogie-woogie I played you love songs
You’d say we’re playing house now you still say we are

We built our getaway up in a tree we found
We felt so far away though we were still in town
Now I remember watching that old tree burn down
I took a picture that I don’t like to look at

Well all these times they come and go
And alone don’t seem so long
Over ten years have gone by
We can’t rewind, we’re locked in time
But you’re still mine
Do you remember?

God please rip my heart out, theres not much left of it but it seems to be causing me a lot of trouble. Please erase my mind I want to be dropped in the middle of nowhere and start over with nothing but these clothes on my back. If only haha that woud be nice. I know you won’t come back so I think it’s best if we just forget that way too there will be nothing to regret so let me say, “Adieu mon amour, adieu.  Je t’aime pour tous de temps, mais je dois aller.” Well as dramatic as this may seem it’s all too real for me I hope this pain doesn’t last too long.

Goodbye

You built me up and broke me down, gave me hope and turned around. I hope that you find peace in this, as for me i’ll learn to live. The hardest part is letting go of something that you treasure so, for there is little in this world that you can love so deeply that you wont let go and it seems a shame to watch you leave as I sit here losing hope. But you claimed you needed this so I’ll leave you to your life and hope that you’ll be alright.

P.S.

Bye Nikki. Those four years weren’t a waste, I enjoyed the time I had with you and it will always have a special place in my heart. I hope you resolve your inner conflicts. I loved you entirely and you meant the world to me, I hope you know this.